A little ray of hope (or two!)

So after the results, which weren’t really results at all, there was no reason why this pregnancy shouldn’t be completely fine.  I must have told myself this a million times a day, but nothing could shake the constant fear of losing this baby. The anxiety and stress; scared every time I went to the toilet…

And the results are in

The day of the appointment came and I was the most anxious I had ever been. This was it, the moment that would decide the fate of this little baby growing inside me. My husband as ever, holding me together and being optimistic.  It wasn’t a long wait but it felt like forever, my stress…

Why won’t anyone help me? 

So there I was pregnant for the fourth time and desperate for results which may be the difference between keeping and losing this baby. All I knew is that I couldn’t wait, so I started ringing around to do all I could to get the results.  I rang the specialist who’s care I was under…

The waiting game

So we had had the scan results back and things had settled down with hospital appointments in general but we were still waiting on the blood test results. After chasing it several times with no joy I came home to a letter from the hospital.  Now whenever I’ve had blood tests before, if they are…

Unfortunately colouring can’t cure a broken heart

After our third miscarriage I felt that I needed at little extra help to manage my grief and also my stress levels in any future pregnancies. This was a huge step for me as I don’t like sharing my pain with others, especially people I don’t know.  But off I went to the GP, explaining…

A cruel twist of fate

So while this was all going on my body decided I hadn’t been through enough, throwing another spanner into the works.  I have always had a little bit of trouble with my hearing, back since I was in school. I developed a slight bit of hearing loss and ringing in my right ear. Test were…

Three is the magic number

So in the UK you have to have had three miscarriages in a row to have it investigated any further. We were now at that ‘magic number’, we had had our designated three heartbreaks and hoped to get some answers. We got referred to a specialist at our local hospital and we’re really worried about…

Fine at making, not so good at baking

I have never had any problems with getting pregnant and that I know is a blessing, as many people try and try without success. However it’s the baking of those lil buns I seem to have trouble with.  We didn’t know about Baby #2 very long before we lost it. But after one miscarriage the…

The first heartbreak

It feels like a lifetime (or two!) ago but Summer 2014 we started trying for a baby. We fell pregnant quite quickly and were overjoyed when we got the positive test result in the August. Baby #1 was due around 20th April 2014, my brothers birthday and the date we had lost my Grandad years…

When making babies is everyone’s business

As soon as we got married the questions and comments started. “So, when are you going to start trying?” and the like became a weekly occurrence from friends, colleagues and even acquaintances. When did this become everyone else’s business?  At first I thought it was just us, but we have since seen it happen to…

The road to motherhood

For as long as I can remember all I wanted to be is a Mum. Easy I thought….find the right man, check! Get married, check! Have a baby……turns out that bit was a little trickier. The road to parenthood for us has been a winding road; lots of ups and downs, twists and turns, a…