When we decided to stop trying for a baby ourselves and go down the adoption route to start our family, there were such mixed emotions.
But the one over riding feeling above all else was one of relief!
No more tracking of my menstrual cycle, no more scheduled sex, no more hoping that I would be pregnant and being heartbroken when my period came. No more analysing every little feeling I was having and wondering if it was because I was pregnant, no more tests or doctors, no more stress.
It broke my heart that we had been through what we had. That we had, at this point been planning and trying for a family for two years. It was like everyone’s lives had moved forward and we were stuck in limbo. We were no closer to having a family than we had been two years previously.
But in making the decision to adopt instead, we hope for the first time since our first miscarriage. Adoption, despite potentially being a lengthy process with no end date, would be much more likely to allow us to start our longed for family. And although at this time I was still struggling to come to terms with us not having our own child, this made me feel good about our decision.
Now we just had to get the ball rolling…