Decision time

Feb 2016 So after checking my email constantly since Monday, we have our answer!! We can start our journey whenever we want. That means now!!! I cannot believe how good it feels to know we can start Stage 1 now, without a three month delay. Went to Harvester to celebrate (any excuse!). Just so happy,…

Our first visit

Feb 2016 Never felt so nervous!! But we are finally here…roll on 2:30… Well that’s it done, 2.5hrs of questions and it’s over. Feeling mostly positive about the whole experience.  Got lots more information on things, especially Foster 2 Adopt. Although I’m still not sure it’s for me personally.  The Senior Social Worker and the…

Documenting our journey

Before we officially started the process, I started writing in a notebook to document our journey. I     should of just started a blog back then and made this whole telling of our story easier!!! Anyway this was the first entry from January 2016; Tomorrow we finally start the amazing journey to become parents….

And so it starts

We made our first enquiry to a local(ish) adoption agency on Christmas Eve 2015.  Christmas, the past couple of years, had been hard; we were desperate for a family and didn’t have one, one of our babies had been due 22nd December, we began miscarrying another on Boxing Day and finally we had only just…

When the trying stops

When we decided to stop trying for a baby ourselves and go down the adoption route to start our family, there were such mixed emotions.  But the one over riding feeling above all else was one of relief!  No more tracking of my menstrual cycle, no more scheduled sex, no more hoping that I would…

Decisions decisions….

We went back to the specialist after our fourth miscarriage, to be told that we had already exhausted all the options available to us. Our only other option would be to go down the research route and she would be happy to refer us.  Over the 18months in which we had been trying and ultimately…

Dear NHS

This is an angry post!  So I’d  like to start out by saying how amazing I think it is that we have the NHS and that we are so lucky to have so many men and women working tirelessly to keep us healthy and alive.  I have had some fantastic dealings with medical professionals during…

And then there were four

So the fact that we have started our family through adoption kind of gives away the ending of this particular tragic story.  But none the less it’s part of the journey so here it is; So we are happily/cautiously carrying on our normal lives waiting to find out whether we are having one baby or…

A little ray of hope (or two!)

So after the results, which weren’t really results at all, there was no reason why this pregnancy shouldn’t be completely fine.  I must have told myself this a million times a day, but nothing could shake the constant fear of losing this baby. The anxiety and stress; scared every time I went to the toilet…

And the results are in

The day of the appointment came and I was the most anxious I had ever been. This was it, the moment that would decide the fate of this little baby growing inside me. My husband as ever, holding me together and being optimistic.  It wasn’t a long wait but it felt like forever, my stress…

Why won’t anyone help me? 

So there I was pregnant for the fourth time and desperate for results which may be the difference between keeping and losing this baby. All I knew is that I couldn’t wait, so I started ringing around to do all I could to get the results.  I rang the specialist who’s care I was under…

The waiting game

So we had had the scan results back and things had settled down with hospital appointments in general but we were still waiting on the blood test results. After chasing it several times with no joy I came home to a letter from the hospital.  Now whenever I’ve had blood tests before, if they are…